Sharing this with you is long over-due considering B is now over a year old. But I really wanted to share my experience with you – I hope you enjoy! 🙂
I was ready for Bridger to get here. He was positioned head down and very low since about 35 weeks. Of course, I didn’t want him to come too soon. I just felt so uncomfortable towards the end – I was swollen and waddled when I walked. At one point, my lips felt like sausages on my face and I had difficulty talking – ah, the miracle of pregnancy. When 39 weeks rolled around I hoped we would be meeting our son very soon.
I put my hospital bag in the car before leaving for my 39 week appointment and it’s a good thing I did. My midwife took measurements of my stomach and was surprised to see I was several centimeters lower than the previous week. She decided to check and I was dilated 3 cm and 75% effaced.
Bridger’s head was so low my cervix was tucked behind his head which meant she had to try re-positioning my cervix.. not a pleasant experience. I was then sent over to the hospital for monitoring and an ultrasound where they discovered I had a significant drop in amniotic fluid.
I was admitted that afternoon to prepare for an induction the next day. Not quite the situation I had hoped and planned for. They put me on an IV to help increase my fluids and planned to induce me with pitocin the next day. I was hoping I would go into labor on my own that night – but unfortunately that didn’t happen.
The next day around 9 am they began the pitocin drip. I was having regular contractions and dilating well – with no pain whatsoever! Then around 1 pm my water broke and that’s when labor got serious. I got in and out of the birthing tub, walked around, attempted to sit on the birthing ball and moved my hips as much as possible to ease the pain. My sweet husband helped me so much by massaging my back and putting pressure on my hips.
I was having extreme cramping in my lower back. My midwife, Julie, suggested a shot of saline to ease my muscles. She and a nurse administered the shots two at a time – a total of four shots in my lower back. She said it would sting – but it felt like fire shooting into my back. That was the only time I yelled during labor. Thankfully, it worked and relaxed my back muscles but since it helped relieve the back pain I could better feel my hips trying to spread in preparation for delivery.
Several hours into labor I remember thinking to myself, “No wonder women get drugs for this sh*t – why the heck didn’t I?! This is crazy! What was I thinking?!” I thought for sure I had lost my mind wanting to endure this kind of pain.
Around 8 pm I had the urge to push. I tried many different positions to push from and eventually stuck with sitting up on the bed with two nurses (and sometime my husband) holding my legs for me.
The strangest thing happened between the contractions and pushing – I feel asleep! I guess it was more like passing out but I literally feel asleep during the 30 seconds between contractions. It was my bodies way of conserving energy and it was the strangest experience. I even dreamed while asleep for those few, short seconds. Finally at 10:00 pm on the dot I delivered a healthy, beautiful baby boy.
What an experience! As soon as he came out they laid him on my chest – the pain melted away- and he began to root around and nurse! He cooed and made the sweetest baby sounds I have ever heard! Shortly after I was up walking and standing beside my husband while they weighed him and took his measurements – how amazing!
I feel blessed to have had the chance to experience giving birth even with all of the pain that came with it. I wouldn’t have done it any other way. As soon and B was delivered I forgot about the pain and I can’t remember what it really felt like.
B weighed in at 6 lbs 11 oz and 19 inches long. He is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen and the most amazing little boy. I am so blessed to be his mother. He’s now over a year old and a smart, strong, kind and rambunctious little boy. His father and I couldn’t be prouder. 🙂
*I put the word natural in quotations because even though I had a drug-free labor I was induced with pitocin.. which is a drug.. but not the pain numbing kind. Yes, I would have preferred my water being broken to bring on labor – but at the time I was so excited/worried/scared I just went along with what my midwives thought best. Also, since the reason for my induction was low fluid it did make sense that they used pitocin because it is an anti-diuretic and causes your body to retain fluid. Therefore, lessening the pressure on my little one in my womb during contractions.
In the end we both came out healthy and happy. That’s all that really matters, isn’t it?